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Well, Godsmack and Metallica fucking rocked. Beyond words. So I won't even TRY.
Uh, I got an awesome folding set of scissors. And a double shooter. (Think about what I just might use them for).
Ray's was a chillin ass time Friday. Hanging out on the golf course of the country club was awesome, as well as just hanging out on his patio. Turkey's been yummy and the mashed potatos have been soft. Amanda's still the greatest girl alive (heart ya tons).
What else does one need?
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[05 Oct 2004|05:36pm] |
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Metallica tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| Fucking "I love everyone and everyone is equal" assholes. |
[04 Sep 2004|04:57pm] |
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Alright, I know you'll all be like "You're such an ass!" when I say this, but you gotta hear me out.
I support racists, and homophobes.
Why you ask? Well, because they have the RIGHT to. And who's to say who can and cannot hate? I think many people like to blur the line between responsibly hating people and minorities and people who form lynch mobs. For example, Mary says to John (love the names eh?) "I fucking hate you, you're a sodomite" or "I fucking hate you, you dumbass rocker!". Now lets say she says "I hate you, you fucking queer!" Why does it matter?
No one should have to justify why they do not LIKE a particular group. No one should be FORCED to accept certain ways of life. And, if thats the case, why are we only going to push certain lifestyles? Why not that of fanaticism? Hmmmmm... Perhaps it just DOESN'T FUCKING MATTER as long as people aren't getting their rights trampled on. Certainly, you do have the right to security, such as, you shouldn't be lynched because you chose to tatoo a penis on your forehead. However, it ISN'T a right to do such outlandish behaviour and DEMAND acceptance. Outlandish or not, nothing in the Charter says that you have to accepted for who you are.
Honestly, I don't see why people feel the reason to further such backward and counter-productive. "Let's all love one another... except its okay to hate people who hate." It's something out of a horrific neo-stalinist ideology. Just because YOU think it's better for people doesn't mean that it isn't a violation of their rights. I think part of the problem is our society will cater hand and foot to every fucking minority.
What? Did I hear someone use the race card? Better suck their dick!
Did I hear someone get called a homophobe? Better publicly shame them!
Did I hear distruction of culture? Wait... that our own.**
Thank you.
**: This is an issue that REALLY pisses me off. I challenged my english class to tell me what "Canadian culture" is, and the best they could say is "Multiculturalism". Fucking GREAT. Because, you know, as Canadians we have nothing to be proud of in our past, such as our traditions in hockey, wilderness, our quasi-socialist mentality, our VERY RICH cultural past, especially in Quebec and Acadia. Yeah. Fuck all that.
It's even funnier, because we'll hate people because "they have no personality of their own... they just take from other people's," but we love our country for doing the exact same with our culture. Way to go guys, cause we definitely dropped the fucking soap on that one.
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[19 Aug 2004|08:26pm] |
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Well, Tanya kinda sparked this entry with a conversation between us, and it just seems that each and every person who is "mobidly depressed" and pretty much complains and whines about their life is holding on to way too much baggage. I guess most people who just mope around and hate themselves and their life just need to get rid of allt he shit in their past. Too many people have a hard time realizing what's done is done and it's out of anyone and everyone's control. I mean, reliving the past over and over again and letting it plague you does no good. Best to just relax, look at it objectively and from an unbiased standpoint, and just learn from it. After that, just learn, and forget.
I mean, I don't know if anyone has noticed a turnaround, but I used to be all "bleh." But once you just relax and let things work their course (and I only have pot to thanks for finally letting me stop being so uptight). I mean, you can always be proactive and try to shape your future, but whatever successes and failures you incur are beyond your control by that point. To dwell either on highs or lows will only distract you from the road ahead.
It's kinda like driving, in a loose way. The more and more you pay attention to what's behind, the more likely you are to fuck up out front. If you just look back every so often and take a glance, and keep focused up front, it's easier to maintain control of your life.
( Survey )
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[11 Aug 2004|01:29am] |
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You are Lateralus. You are unique, intelligent, and
most importantly, an individual. You are
probably a leader and you see and do things
your own way, which is usually different from
the norm. We expect big things to come from
you.
What Tool song are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
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| Someone forward this the fuck to Tyler. |
[09 Aug 2004|09:21pm] |
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Tyler, you missed a bus, but I'm not going to take the blame on it. I don;t control the schedules. I don't have anything to do with the fact you missed a bus. You want to blame me cause you didn't get home? Well, tell me, what were your fucking options?
a) Take the bus, and the ONLY bus routes running at ELEVEN FOURTY PM ON A SUNDAY
b) Get a ride
Since you couldn't get a ride, obvously you had to take the bus. I told you the fucking routes. I told you the 26 runs till midnight. You know what, I was off SLIGHTLY, cause the last bus departed at 11:47. So what? Am I supposed to work for the city now, the fucking walking schedule guide? I certainly have not seen a paycheck for it.
Fact of the matter, Tyler, if you looked at the facts, you were SOL as soon as you called home and didn't get a ride. Let's analyse the facts:
1) I told you the proper route home since you asked.
2) Upon arriving at Chris's you couldn't manage a ride.
3) You asked me for a ride. I told you my sister couldn't drive an extra 20-30 minutes out of her way since she was doing work.
4) My sister then spend the next 45 minutes at home calling her hours into her office.
5) Your ONLY option left was to take the bus at this point.
ONLY AT THIS POINT did my instructions on which bus to take take on ANY meaning. Furthermore, had I told you at 3:00 pm the routes to take, you still would have missed the bus.
So ultimately, it's not MY FAULT you missed the bus. THE TIME OF WHICH YOU ASKED WHAT BUSSES TO TAKE, YOU HAD ALREADY BECOME SOL, AND MISSED THE BUSSES TO TAKE.
But hey, apparantly, because you were late, it's my fault Tyler. Two thumbs up.
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[09 Aug 2004|01:39am] |
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I can't stand fake people. I just relised that a bit ago. I mean, recently I've become friends (as opposed to just good aquintances) with both Chris and Amanda, and even Will just because when I'm around them, I know what to expect. Like, they're good friends, and they're very likeable people, but it's always good thats I don't have to deal with them being erratic as people.
I believe the reason why it's hard to beat being genuine is that when you're faking it, it's hard to be the same day in, day out. When you're playing to the crowd, it's just not possible to keep the game face on all the time. At one point another, you take a break, even when you're not with someone you have to pretend to, but it eventually gets around. Eventually people see who you are or that you're just trying to play them like a fiddle.
Don't get me wrong in saying that all geniune people are cool. There are genuine assholes. I would say there are alot of them. But people who are genuinely people who you just enjoy hanging with 'cause it makes you at ease.
Also, while talking to Amanda, doing drugs, oddly enough, has let me be me. I was probably the least self-censored person within "the group" as I was for most purposes, not even in it. I did what I pleased, much to the dismay of others. I'm glad though that I began doing what I've been doing without inhibitions about it because it allows me to relax (not being high, but doing it and not limiting myself). Doing drugs has allowed me to keep in tune with myself and I think since starting I've become better as a person.
Essentially, I have learned importance of letting things work their course. Trying to force your future, your image and your friends has nothing but energy working against you. Trying to control something of such a large nature is simply a task that is not to undertaken. Nothing ill comes of letting things work their course. Accepting who and what you are, doing what you feel is best suited to what you want to achieve for yourself is ultimately what most people strive for. I feel only so lucky to have found it.
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[04 Aug 2004|09:01pm] |
Oh yeah, I have nosebleeds for the Metallica concert in October =P
Aside from that, Ransome and I might be going to the Slayer & Judas Priest show on the 18th. Tickets for lawn seats at the Amphitheatre are about $10.75 I think, so leave a comment if interested. (Note: There MAY smoking of herb taking place, so keep that in mind)
Tubular.
EDIT: Just a minute or two ago, they sold out of $10.75 tickets, with the next available being $29.50. Plans = dead.
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[04 Aug 2004|12:44am] |
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I just talked with a friend, and I feel tons better about Amanda... =) I just hope Amanda still loves me and everything.
Today, while sifting through the vaults of Erowid, I discovered something that sparked some brain cells to recall this conversation with Gunj and Lisa about drugs and philisophical thought. This is the excerpt that made me recall it (Taken from an LSA/Morning Glory Seed experience):
"Also, I found myself thinking about the quote from (I think) Socrates which goes something something like 'All I know is that I know nothing'. I know this may sound sophomoric, but the truth of this statement dumb- founded me. All our knowledge of 'things' or phenomena is ultimately relative, referring to other things or phenomena. Science is just a more rigorous way of classifying/observing/predicting things. But ultimately we remain completely stupid -- we can never know what something is. This seemed a fundamental truth, no matter how advanced we ever get technologically. The world seemed like a very crazy, random, chaotic place - like a giant zoo, with everybody living in it for completely different reasons. These thoughts really depressed me at the time."
Such thoughts are not spontaneous. Furthermore, one who forces him/herself to ponder the nature of the universe rarely has such unhindered insight into the true origins of the universe. One one has one view from which he can look from, whereas psychotropics allow for another set of experiences to formulate a theory. On my strongest experience with mushrooms, I remember how depressed I felt when you begin to fathom the expanses of the universe and put it into motion, as if viewing it as a separate entity, which makes one realize that to be a separate entity watching the earth goes comes the reality that it is actually existing the same without you.
Not spectacular, but the harshness of the revalation just floors you on mush. You absorb it better and you better integrate the ideas into your life.
Another common thread that seems to occur with LSA and Salvia use (the two drugs I'm currently spending my time reading expoeriences with) is their inherent ability to reassert or rebuild one's notion of self. LSA and Salvia, ESPECIALLY in bad trips focus on the negative energies of the user, magnifying their shame and remorse. They destroy their ego, and when the user emerges from the trip, they are left with the job of analyzing the experience and they end up gaining insight. Many people who have extremely bad trips find afterwards that they feel happier with themselves.
But either way, drugs are stupid right? I guess all those pieces of art from reniassances centuries ago are worthless trash, cause whatever is drug inspired inherently an act of stupidity. And really, the ultimate frontier of stupidity HAS to be taking mushrooms or LSD, you know, finding out your relation to the universe and finding your sense of selse without physical or mental side-effects!
Hell, by your argument, the ancient shamans of glorious cultures past are the neandrethals of human history.
I rest my case.
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[03 Aug 2004|11:25pm] |
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I'm starting to worry. I seem to be pushing my luck every day with Amanda, and I get off with saying some things. And sometimes she says things to me that make me wonder how she feels about me. It's really hard, and I'm finding myself in this turmoil, cause I love her, but there are these things that I wish she wouldn't do. I dunno, it's not like I think it'd ever make me brewak up with her, but it's there... I worry. I love her so much... and just... I dunno.
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[30 Jul 2004|11:31pm] |
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I got a 93 in summer school Chemistry, and ended up being top of the class =P. I recently got a new bong, today got a really nice blacklight reactive Hendrix poster, and new shoes (much needed) on the way. But, most importantly, I am generally just glad to be out of summer school.
I would have to rate those two weeks as my worst summer experience ever. Anyone who thinks that getting up at 6 to bus up to Heart Lake to listen to some supply or incompetant teacher babble on for 5 hours can't be that bad, I dare you to fail a course. But, thats all behind me, and I'm never going to attend such a program ever again in my life.
I've been finding whule trying to read this, this has probably the best summer I've had to date. For once, I'm actually being social and doing shit, and that the time is just passing relaxing and doing a whole lot of nothing. Pretty much, each day is the same, with me just doing whatever, and enjoying my time off. I just wish something really cool would come along. It's kinda getting boring writing entries about stuff thats not really all that special.
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[17 Jul 2004|10:44pm] |
Well, last night I almost went to hospital after combining DXM, Booze, Weed and Ephederine. I spent a few hours throwing up and what not, but hey! I'm alive! Also, I think after last night it should be mandatory to have lesbians at a party. It's always great to sit down on the couch beside them and watch them make out every once in awhile.
Suprises of last night: Christ showing up, FINALLY getting drunk with everyone from back at school, my display of gastro-intestinal fireworks.
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[14 Jul 2004|12:48pm] |
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Summer school is starting to worry me. I don;t want to waste two weeks of my time to learn chemistry for 5 hours a day.
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[14 Jul 2004|02:48am] |
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lol, Thunder and lightning when your stoned out of your mind and an a low plateau dose of DXM is very cool. =P
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[07 Jul 2004|10:05pm] |
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Alright, just would like to say, Aphex Twin is fucking awesome. I'd recoomend downloading Come To Daddy, Windowlicker, Polygon Window, and Digeridoo, which are very good songs.
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[04 Jul 2004|10:10pm] |
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freakin' me out you wear a mask called counterfeit,
you're freakin' me out you wear a... FAKE
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[02 Jul 2004|11:29pm] |
Well yesterday was Canada's Day (Woo!) so I went to spend the day with Amanda. First off, I have to say, her mom rox and I kinda feel bad 'cause she always makes breakfast for me when I come (once she even had it waiting on the table for me when I got in) and she always gives us rides, so without her, and most importantly, she talked Amanda's dad into letting us see each other again, so without her, we'd really be done. So yeah, we went to Chingcousy park and we chilled for the day. We played some midway games before going on the paddle boats and chased a duck with a curly tail. We ended meeting up with some friends, toking, playing some mini golf, buying stuff, and watching the fireworks.
The fireworks were pretty good, except because we were downwind and on a hill, a lot of people around me got a lot of debris in their eyes. I only got hit in the eye twice though :P. I spent the entire show cuddling with Amanda, and it probably was the best part of the day, her there by my side. I had just told her something thats been bothering me for years, and I've started worrying about it again, and it felt good just to have her there. I know she cares a lot for me, cause she gets really worried whenever I do [real] drugs. She got upset because I wanted to do E for the fireworks, and she just worries about me in general.
At the end of the night, all the police (after a couple fights broke out) formed a line and started forcing people out of the park. Some thugs tried blowing cars up by lighting firecrackers under the gas tanks and just started trowing cherry bombs into the crowd of people leaving the parking lot. Next thing, cops start pouring in with riot gear on and shit. Leaving the park, all the roads were closed. It was really waierd.
Note: I bought yesterday a pacifier that flashes multicoloured LEDs and is also a whistle, some fudge, won Amanda a Spongebob, and found a glowstick :P
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[30 Jun 2004|02:14am] |
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Today I saw Micheal Moore's Farenheit (sp?) 9/11. Although it is a documentary, what I enjoy about it the most is the audience it is able to reach. The topics discussed by Moore are one's that have present in many forms of literature. Noam Chomsky is well-known as an unbiased critic of United States policy, yet many people do not read his books. Connections between adiministrations and actions that society would condone are aplenty, which are thoroughly discussed, even in High Times.
I think the depictions of government seen in Moore's films should never be taken at face value. To take that as the absolute viewpoint on government is what created such a situation in the first place. I think that each individual has his/her own responsibility, that after seeing such a film, should expand on this knowledge, especially on a topic that is common in literature.
Oh, and I love Amanda =)
*Chomp Chomp*
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[27 Jun 2004|11:58pm] |
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Wow, the summer's going by faster than I thought, being a week and a half since my last exam, and summer school just looming ahead. I really do enjoy getting to blaze whenever and see Amanda more frequently, which will definitely make my summer. I guess things got off to a weird start, since Ashley Esposito called one night out of nowhere at 12 at night.
For those of you who don't know me personally, Ash was probably my closest friend, and a sister to me for a couple of years. A year and a half ago, she stopped talking to me around Christmas, cause she felt that she couldn't talk to me about her boyfriend. So yeah, we haven't talked for a year and a half. I kinda have mixed feelings about this, and the more we talk the more and more I see how she's changed.
I'm pissed about my unemployed status. I applied to two Blockbusters, HMV, Music World, Randy River, Zero Edge, T-shirt and stupid ass rice boy car carts in Erin Mills, and yeah, not a single interview. The vast majority aren't hiring 'till september, and the once place where I was given the impression I might get an interview, they hired 4 new staff just days after I applied. I'm stooping of the level of applying to Dominion, somewhere I never wanted to work.
God, I'm a step away from McDonald's, one that I'll never take. I'd rather have the shame of Amanda pay for me constantly to reduce myself to: "Would you like to supersize that?"
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